All that pains is not Sorrow

When I see Your face beside me,
In reality or in dream
Or in contemplation,
There is inexplainable pain in the heart
Its cause is not sorrow
For I don't grieve seeing You
I am ecstatic ...
seeing your eyes glow softly like moons..

But there is pain,
There is dryness created like an isle
There is tearing of my self
That is attached to You
The fire is on inside the deep chamber of the soul
And something is melting..
And that's painful...
Something hard becoming liquid..
Yes, this is merger...

My soul, each part of its
Is liquidizing to merge with your soul
All earthen qualities are being dropped
The soul is assuming its after death qualities..
Its true colour of Light!
Its painful for it has assumed the process
Even if there is a body attached to it.
Its trying to transform matter into light...
When it sees Your eyes,
In photos or in portraits
It starts the grand procedure of transform
And becomes ready for the phenomenal unison -
Soul to soul, mine to Yours!

The tie up is excruciatingly painful
As there is sudden fullness and sudden emptiness...
The journey makes the heart sometimes fearful
As every step is in unfamiliar ground...
Never known before...
All the happenings are not cause-effect based.

When I see your face beside me in vision
There is pain inside my heart
For it knows
You have some parts of mine
It feels the pain of ancient separation
When you were teared from me
To be created as a separate self
During formation of this universe...
It feels the age old pangs...
And the cellular qualities of my soul
Opens up for the transfusion
With the cells of the soul
That they know is ours....
And its painful....
The transmutation is painful.

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8.15am
Sunday
6!3.2016
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