Non-Entity

As the waves of pleasure hit me
My blossomed brain cells did not call out his name
Instead a violent sob recked my spine
With a vision of a slender chest
With thick black hair covering-
So full of life,
his body-now with earthly dimensions to it
Hang softly over me..
An unnamed God fused in soft bliss
Cultivating an unknown innocence in me.

In this soft velvety darkness
The arched neck has a message for me
And the coal dark eyes that stare unblinkingly
In that most endearing face
Made me cry unreasonably..
For the first time i did not call out his name.
And am busy feeling Him
As a man, as a living being,
As the only soul possession of mine,
As my most loved human upon earth.

I sobbed a little more
Realising how much more i am connected to him
And how very far away and disinterested he is in me.
I sobbed thinking
Loving him is what i want to do
And how it is not even a remote possibility.
I sobbed some more
Remembering how fondly i had hold him
With how much care feeling his soft being
How much i value that known creature
Who has become a non-entity .