Waiting for the hoofbeats of Rudolf...

Where is Santa!

I haven't heard any knock upon the door,

nor any present i receive...

Or has he come...

in disguise.. in another form...

i sit here by the window...

and is waiting for the hoofbeats of Rudolf...

in a cold winter night...

counting...recounting the lonely stars...

of the Christmas eve!

Tum

Raat nahi ho,

Saheli ho jeise,

Mere dare hue kadmo ko

tum tak le jane ke lie ai hai!

Tum jo sans roke

Mere ane ki ahat par ankh jamaye beithe ho,

Ghabrahat ki bimari lagi hui hai dil ko!

Eise me jo mujhe tum tak chalk e jana pade,

Mai apne kadmo se darun,

Tumhare ruke hue sanson se darun…

Mai darun tumse,

Jab ki tumhare pash hi mujhe jana hai!

Ye baichitrya keisi,

Samajh na aya ab tak,

Na taqat rah gai hai

In bawri si tan man me…

Jo tere laagi ho gai Sakha…

Tere ankhon ko chhuke jo ahsash ate hein

Mujhe hath kadi, god-kadi pahnae

Tere samne ghasitte hue haajir karte hein, Rajaji

Mai saram se muhn dhakna chahun,

Par hath bhi bandhe hue rahte hein…

Tu bas baitha hai,

Ankhon ki Deepak jalae,

Dur kahi dur… bahut dur

Un Deepak ki lau mujhe jalate,

Rooh tak ujala bharte,

Mere charon taraf ek chadar ki tarha ghere rahte hein Kumar,

Aur mai nit nit prati din tum tak eise chalke jati hun,

Apna dil ankhon me lie chalti hun,

Khash tumhe bhentne ke lie…

Par tumhare pratikshya ke darvar ki chaukhat pe ake

Mai chup hoke khadi ho jati hun,

Na tum tak jane ki hausla hai,

Na pichhe jane ki taqat…

Bas wohi khadi rahti hun…

Tu samne Chand ki tarha jalta rahta hai,

Aur mai niharti rahti hun…

The Map

Your Footprints …
along the bay of my heart 
create a LifeLine for me...
Holding which i start the non-ending journey... 

On my way i find
scented flower beds 
with angels playing sweet music, 
fairies dancing to their tune, 
with a bright brilliant sunlight
smiling somewhere in between...

But somewhere i stumble ...
deep dark pits with evil creatures lurking inside...
mouth agape, screaming...
if i fall, they will devour me ...
But i hold onto the Sacred Charm
that fell from ur eyes,
and the single candle of love
that we both have lighted with a fire, non-stop!

i cling to the LifeLine that you gifted me,
and i pass by the dangerous tunnels, pits and caverns...
Each time i emerge out of a deep dark creek,
there is light everywhere,
and earth smiles at me..
Holding the Sun in your hand you stand
there in the yonder and call out my name...
Again and again ...

A beautiful Map of Your Foot Prints spreads before me, 

and i start the Treasure Hunt again...

The Other Side of The Wall

I can hear You breathe... very softly...
in the other side of the door...
so i sit down here, as my legs are shaking...
Can not even have the courage to knock...
fearing you might go...
and the pain in the heart 
has become shy like a bride...
how it wants to conceal all the anguish
in it's heavy veil!

nothingness smells sweet

i extend my arms,

and your face becomes clearer,

very clear in my mind's eye...

my arms encircle a great void!

and that nothingness smells sweet,

just like you...

how blue is the water in your eyes...

O why you stand like that,

as if you don't sense me,

as if i don't exist...

what distant horizon you see
,
how blue is the water in your eyes...

O where are you!

i have become a mad ghost,

searching for you...

how my soul spreads like a magic flying carpet,

how it shrinks back again...

the spreading, the shrinking has ruptured my heart!

here and there i search for you!

O where are you!

when every breath hisses your name!

Cloud Contry

The sky is like a big sheet of mud water spread...
A vast spread...
An unending stretch...
And i fly like a nomad bird,
steering long, tall cloud walls,
looking for my Angel, the Rain-Eyed!
I pass by cloud deities,
moving in a stately caravan,
mostly shaped in prehistoric creature form;
Here a languid brontosaurus i see,
there a camel wearing lofty arrangements overhead...
Moving very elegantly,
very slowly,
as if half swimming half floating,
in a surreal heavenly river!

Somewhere there is a landing,
a white stretch,
waiting for any heavenly chariot to descend any time,
and some where there is a mysterious field,
and far ahead beckoning the horizon is a single tree,
going through it's naming ceremony- 'Kalpabrikshya'!

Then the Fairy reads out the Cloud Tarrot Card!
But she smiles and did not disclose the interpretation!
Down below Brahmaputra sighs...
simmers...
Clinging to it's silvery sand bed!

~*Cloud Country*~

Deulajhari

drops of tear...

falling like a hot water spring -

bubbling up from the earth...

non-ending...

earth is shivering with bouts of grief!

Deulajhari!!

O Umanath, Hattakeswar Mahadev,

 
i can not suppress the sanguine sorrow,

forgive me...

my inner core is riddled with hot woes…

O Ma Durgati Nashini,

You are the witness!

Stardust

Stardust, burning me thoroughly,

i hold you in my hand 

and you dig a hole in it...

Stardust, you are divine, i am human...

i knew you are light,

but a burning Light...

i was so obsessed with Light,

i hold you in my hand,

not giving a second thought to it...

stardust you are burning me!

Sacred Charm

I kissed the dots 

that you put here like stardusts...

something so familiar about them...

I kissed the finger,

Your finger that made them be there

For my eyes to see

And recognise you!

I kiss the Good Morning

That you send for me

Dressed with happy tidings,

I kiss your heart

With my heart in my throat,

And life bubbling out of my eyes,

With the Anahat Chakra churning...

Calling out to you,

Your name as a flying carpet,

I kiss the divine charm you send to me,

I kiss you 'Fountain of Life'!
*

Facebook

Mysterious facebook- 

i encounter many spirits here ....

they come as Lights 

who become one sometimes.. 

and I sense they are not exactly happy with me... 

not properly appeased divine beings!

Mad Potion

i have taken one mad-potion 

from a fairy when the Moon was anointing 

shooting star as her kajal!

The Artist

When i started knowing You,

O my Lord,

i didn't know that i am entering an Artist's world,

but i did...

and i was touched...

and still am...

My soul bloomed into thousand petaled Lotus,

with the magical stroke of your brush divine...

Those celestial vines,

creeping ...climbing the cloud-bathed-window...

still comes into my vision O Lord SomaSekhara!

i am still dazed by the engrafted flowers in my heart...

Your Gift to me...

i remain yours ...

The Artist & Vanshika

The Birth of a Star! ~*

Blue Sky,
an Ancient wrap,
how old you are!
i see lights from the stars,
that are dead million years ago,
and still reaching me...
how vast you are...!

Blue Sky,
won't you tell me a little secret
when i will be done with this earth,
where you are gonna hide me,
in which loftiest star...
but then again light can not be hidden..
so you can not hide me now...
then what else i am to do-
than to adorn you,
with more burning...
more madenning thirst,
-your darkness as a light!
let me born as a star!

! The Inseparable !

When Moon speaks word 
that pierce as hot coal to the heart,
how can i blame Moonlight!

When anklet hurts,
how can i blame the dance floor!

When the Soul de-tastes the Body,
No one can blame Life...
I die here and now...

Samudraa

Sagara, tuma pratikshya re 

kebe mu bela ra kunthita lagna sajili,

kebe mu laharira akuhaa kuhaata,

kebe bali kankankadaa ra jhuntiaa saajili...

kebe raati re chandrama hei uinli,


jalili, jharili to chhatire...

...
Saagara, tuma pratikshya re


kebe mu hajila jala-pari ra gumuraa kandana,


kebe dhana-bahi boita ra Suna Manga saajili,


Saagar tuma praitkshya re 

mu janena kebe je kemiti Saagarika sajili!

*Phere...

Saat Phere...
Saat Janam...
Saat Bachan...
have heard all this many times...
and have seen Earth revolving around the Sun ...
Saying -here You...and here me...
and round and round we go...
in loving symphony...
seven hundred million times!

O Bhole

O Shiva, O Wanderer... O Beautiful One!
You are everywhere...and yet i search for You here and there...
Whenever You need cool water for your burning throat,
Come to me, i will pour upon You, O Bhole,
Do not shy, O Lord, for i do not have nectar...
for i am no God...
then why should i want to be a God!
You are the God, my God...
You will be there for me always...
accept a little water for your burning thirst,
O Ashutosh!
Do not shy away...

Cloud Canopy

The clouds of sorrow ...
thicker and thicker becoming thicker everyday,
and here i am to believe,
there is a Sun up there in the sky
whose kingdom is all illuminated...
how am i to believe,
this cloud canopy is but a screen,
for i am not gifted with a set of eye
which can see through...
whether a Sun or a Moon...
who is going to tell me...
the creator is asleep
and so is everybody beside me...
am i in a dream hovering here to there...

i have heard when i was a child
the Sun penetrates the thickest of clouds
but here it is so dark...
how i am going to believe 
there is a Sun up in the sky!

but sometimes in the horizon...
far far away from me
someone chants my name...
and torches fire...
here i walk towards him...
stumbling...falling... i am crawling
towards the fire...
towards the Light...
with a knack very strong and
with a hope-gradually becoming lesser and lesser
that i will reach there one day!



Cloud Canopy
9am
12th Dec 2013

Love-Knot !

Your love knots are tied around my heart
Holding me securely under their spell,
O My Creator, My Lord!
and with this i did the rest- the Soul-Mapping!

Threads of gold and silver have spun a lovely web
Attaching themselves to my heart strings..

Refusing to let go, leaving my heart tied
with your love knots !
O My Creator, My Lord!

Chosen!

When someone shows pure affection,
learn not to call them out of date!
and not to repay it too...
show some goodness,
for God is standing right before You!