Wanna relive your life

Want to be your shadow...
So that can collect the breathes you threw out of your heart...
Thinking of me.

And of the lonely one
Lonely lonely Mukesh....
Who does not know me...
Want to collect whatever u v left....

Want to live
A life you missed
So easily
Like a mad man in intoxication....

Want to collect the shirts
That you shed everyday
Not for laundering
But to sniff like a  dog and memorize for hundred of years
And to think of your slender arms in it and your shoulders, lustrous like a horse back...

The tissue you threw out of the train compartment
And the drink you rejected in the aircraft and the inviting smile of the air hostess you meet with cold flat eyes...
Want to collect and bead.....

Frame your tears
That you stored in the pillow late night...
And the smiles glued, muschievious.....
Looking at me from a hacked laptop...
9 years back...

Want to relieve your life
Like an addict runs for dope...
Like the darkness of the no moon day calls for a star
Want to relive your life that is so alluring for me and that you thought is so boring and unwanted.
I want it
To live.
May God grant a day when i go and see where you were standing talking to me...
And also standing
Holding the phone, where my call is silenced...
Want to see you sitting in the bitch thinking nothing...
Your eyes bearing the loss like the shades of an evening....
That came so early...