Tera ghar : Mera ghar

Ye v...

Ye mai
Mai kam
Tere jyada....

Jo khudko dekh k chaunki...
Tu kitna chhan ata h
Mere me, jani...

Jo tere mere gupchup
Ek kahta hua muhn se
Ek kahta hua neerab laharon k tarha
Kahin darj ho
Aur bane koi chehra...

Tune aona ghar khoj lia h
Ye to dikhta h
Kabhi kahi to na thi
Par baton baton me jo andaj
Tune kar liya hoga
Meine v eise hi kuchh kaha tha..

Khair,
Tere ghar dekh lagta hai
Mera v kahin hoga jarur...
Dekhna tha
Ankh mundne se pahle
Ek bari dekhna tha
Mere ghar ka chehra
Sirf mera.

Ek Citra-Tera sa, Mera sa...

Ek Sapna Salona...

Ek man ki mandir
Jiski jharokhe se jhanko to
Dur akash ki dhalan me kahin
Tu khila ...adha abhi abhi ubharta hua Chand ki tarha
Aur mai chhipi
Eise kahin hariyali me
Kuchh gulabi rang leke
Tere adharon me lagne
Khoj k Tujhe
meghon ki parijat bhavan me kahin lukka chhipi khelte hue
Aganan dev sishuon k sath
Jinka chehra kuchh
Chand jeisa kuchh gulab jeisa.

Ek chitra-
Kuchh Tera sa,
Kuchh mera sa!

Trembling Waves

Wish i live near such a pool
& have nothing to ponder...
Would gaze at the trembling water- air-struck ... always in motion... flowing from this end to that end... going no where... as if taken an oath to exoplore- "who i am"...

Wish i watch the simmering water...
And sooth the flow of electric waves in my mind
that are almost paralyzing me...

Wish i were a monkey
Living in the deepest part of the jungle
Dangling from a tree branch-
that has gone down hoping to touch n count the innumerable little dancingwaves of a large groovy blue lake
And doze... half closing my intoxicated eye lids.....



25.7.2019
9.30am

Saranarthi aur Barsha

Ek aya moth kahin se...
Phadphadate bola
Ghana andhitari raat h
Uspe pavan pagal hai,
Bijli v tham tham ke
Nach uthi hai bidagdh Ishwari ki tarha
Chandra chhup gaya ha
Yehi dikhata to hai
Par kaun jane chhip gaya ho
Shiv ki jatajut me
Asshray asha me
Aj k raat mai sishu banu
Tum dhare rakho, Prabhu mujhe...

Eise me bahar khatra h
Jo pavan matali hai
Aur bijli diwani...
Kya ashray milegi yahan?
Tum jo chillao to sine me dar sa aur umad ata h....

Eise kahke guhariyan karte
Bekal phad phad pankh se man jeet ke beitha saranarthi ek pyara...
Photo id mangi jab v kuchh na kaha,
Janch karne diya...

Subah panch baje ankh khula v to jhip jhip baris ki sehra pahne Surya mukh chhupae the kahin,
Unki chehra dekhne chala gaya tha sayad...
Subah ashrya sthal khali tha...

Akele ke ghar me
Eise kai jaan ate hein
Koi rah jate hein,
Chhupke kahin pata na chalta
Koi ate jate rahte hein
Koi koi eise ek baarish ko rasta dikha kar mujh tak lakar kahin gayab ho jate hein ek saal k lie...
Fir milenge kya...
Kyun nahi k neerab pratishruti kahin likh kar

Khush thi
Uski ane se
Ye to hai
Par kya dukhi hun jane se...
Khudko puchhte puchhte
Kuchh din bit jaegi ab eise...

Kahan hoga ab...
Puchhna kitna asangat hoga...
Bahar itna bada duniya me
Nikal jane k baad
Wo kaun mai kaun...
Kis tarha ka rista...?
Par kal wo pash tha
Raat bhar wohin mere darwaje pe latakte hue safed kurti pe baitha raha...

Ye sabki uttar barsha ko jarur pata hoga
Iske pankh pakad k jo ye ai h
Puchhti hun,
Akele me,
Kya baat hai ?

~Belated Bday wishes...?

Whenever i wish someone else

On their b'day,

You are born again in my mind

Fresh as a new raindrop

On the first day of August

O Jayant, why do you cry, then,

Like a old old dove

Remembering a lost link ?


Everyone is telling August is on its way...

These clouds, the shady sky, the unique scent in the air, these trees, their mercury green glistening leaves, the trembling beds of water bodies...

Everyone...

It is coming, sneaking its way in the solar universe- this August-
That made me know you!

As it reaches

It will bring your rebirth again, every year.



You are reborn...

As you said,

But unseen to the world...

I had a glimpse of you

Radiant, holding life in your hand,

With an august presence

You had smiled at me

"There... i m here

And for you..."

Then you became invisible.

I hear only the flutter of your soul wings now...

Where are you, Eternal Friend ?


I just wished you

Happy Birthday

It's now upto you to tell me

Is it belated

Or in time?

Wanna relive your life

Want to be your shadow...
So that can collect the breathes you threw out of your heart...
Thinking of me.

And of the lonely one
Lonely lonely Mukesh....
Who does not know me...
Want to collect whatever u v left....

Want to live
A life you missed
So easily
Like a mad man in intoxication....

Want to collect the shirts
That you shed everyday
Not for laundering
But to sniff like a  dog and memorize for hundred of years
And to think of your slender arms in it and your shoulders, lustrous like a horse back...

The tissue you threw out of the train compartment
And the drink you rejected in the aircraft and the inviting smile of the air hostess you meet with cold flat eyes...
Want to collect and bead.....

Frame your tears
That you stored in the pillow late night...
And the smiles glued, muschievious.....
Looking at me from a hacked laptop...
9 years back...

Want to relieve your life
Like an addict runs for dope...
Like the darkness of the no moon day calls for a star
Want to relive your life that is so alluring for me and that you thought is so boring and unwanted.
I want it
To live.
May God grant a day when i go and see where you were standing talking to me...
And also standing
Holding the phone, where my call is silenced...
Want to see you sitting in the bitch thinking nothing...
Your eyes bearing the loss like the shades of an evening....
That came so early...