Waiting for the hoofbeats of Rudolf...

Where is Santa!

I haven't heard any knock upon the door,

nor any present i receive...

Or has he come...

in disguise.. in another form...

i sit here by the window...

and is waiting for the hoofbeats of Rudolf...

in a cold winter night...

counting...recounting the lonely stars...

of the Christmas eve!

Tum

Raat nahi ho,

Saheli ho jeise,

Mere dare hue kadmo ko

tum tak le jane ke lie ai hai!

Tum jo sans roke

Mere ane ki ahat par ankh jamaye beithe ho,

Ghabrahat ki bimari lagi hui hai dil ko!

Eise me jo mujhe tum tak chalk e jana pade,

Mai apne kadmo se darun,

Tumhare ruke hue sanson se darun…

Mai darun tumse,

Jab ki tumhare pash hi mujhe jana hai!

Ye baichitrya keisi,

Samajh na aya ab tak,

Na taqat rah gai hai

In bawri si tan man me…

Jo tere laagi ho gai Sakha…

Tere ankhon ko chhuke jo ahsash ate hein

Mujhe hath kadi, god-kadi pahnae

Tere samne ghasitte hue haajir karte hein, Rajaji

Mai saram se muhn dhakna chahun,

Par hath bhi bandhe hue rahte hein…

Tu bas baitha hai,

Ankhon ki Deepak jalae,

Dur kahi dur… bahut dur

Un Deepak ki lau mujhe jalate,

Rooh tak ujala bharte,

Mere charon taraf ek chadar ki tarha ghere rahte hein Kumar,

Aur mai nit nit prati din tum tak eise chalke jati hun,

Apna dil ankhon me lie chalti hun,

Khash tumhe bhentne ke lie…

Par tumhare pratikshya ke darvar ki chaukhat pe ake

Mai chup hoke khadi ho jati hun,

Na tum tak jane ki hausla hai,

Na pichhe jane ki taqat…

Bas wohi khadi rahti hun…

Tu samne Chand ki tarha jalta rahta hai,

Aur mai niharti rahti hun…

The Map

Your Footprints …
along the bay of my heart 
create a LifeLine for me...
Holding which i start the non-ending journey... 

On my way i find
scented flower beds 
with angels playing sweet music, 
fairies dancing to their tune, 
with a bright brilliant sunlight
smiling somewhere in between...

But somewhere i stumble ...
deep dark pits with evil creatures lurking inside...
mouth agape, screaming...
if i fall, they will devour me ...
But i hold onto the Sacred Charm
that fell from ur eyes,
and the single candle of love
that we both have lighted with a fire, non-stop!

i cling to the LifeLine that you gifted me,
and i pass by the dangerous tunnels, pits and caverns...
Each time i emerge out of a deep dark creek,
there is light everywhere,
and earth smiles at me..
Holding the Sun in your hand you stand
there in the yonder and call out my name...
Again and again ...

A beautiful Map of Your Foot Prints spreads before me, 

and i start the Treasure Hunt again...

The Other Side of The Wall

I can hear You breathe... very softly...
in the other side of the door...
so i sit down here, as my legs are shaking...
Can not even have the courage to knock...
fearing you might go...
and the pain in the heart 
has become shy like a bride...
how it wants to conceal all the anguish
in it's heavy veil!

nothingness smells sweet

i extend my arms,

and your face becomes clearer,

very clear in my mind's eye...

my arms encircle a great void!

and that nothingness smells sweet,

just like you...

how blue is the water in your eyes...

O why you stand like that,

as if you don't sense me,

as if i don't exist...

what distant horizon you see
,
how blue is the water in your eyes...

O where are you!

i have become a mad ghost,

searching for you...

how my soul spreads like a magic flying carpet,

how it shrinks back again...

the spreading, the shrinking has ruptured my heart!

here and there i search for you!

O where are you!

when every breath hisses your name!

Cloud Contry

The sky is like a big sheet of mud water spread...
A vast spread...
An unending stretch...
And i fly like a nomad bird,
steering long, tall cloud walls,
looking for my Angel, the Rain-Eyed!
I pass by cloud deities,
moving in a stately caravan,
mostly shaped in prehistoric creature form;
Here a languid brontosaurus i see,
there a camel wearing lofty arrangements overhead...
Moving very elegantly,
very slowly,
as if half swimming half floating,
in a surreal heavenly river!

Somewhere there is a landing,
a white stretch,
waiting for any heavenly chariot to descend any time,
and some where there is a mysterious field,
and far ahead beckoning the horizon is a single tree,
going through it's naming ceremony- 'Kalpabrikshya'!

Then the Fairy reads out the Cloud Tarrot Card!
But she smiles and did not disclose the interpretation!
Down below Brahmaputra sighs...
simmers...
Clinging to it's silvery sand bed!

~*Cloud Country*~