This time i didn't fail

It was so serene
I thought for a second
May b
I am trespassing!

I am tresspassing to a place
I am not authorised to enter
But no body did mind
Noone welcomed me
But i can see
I am somewhat accepted....

I am accepted
And they urge me
To be the glistening hue upon the rice field- to which i failed;
they urge me
To mingle with the bird chirping-
to which i failed again...
They urge me to be the smoky merging line in the distant horizon,
to which i failed the same..
Noone did mind again...
Noone compelled me to
Only the Sun sent a peculiar ray
That touched the ground before me
Thanking me for God knows why...

I got a thank you note
And i need to write a reply
Thought i dont know what i should write -
Still i scrolled something upon the sand and erased it ...
Two tiny birds sat upon the wire before me
As if curious to see what i did write.

I took snaps of the sun, of the rice field, of the birds, chirping and flying.. and something some being hidden, lying-half-asleep within everything could not be caught, i can sense it...
everywhere...

It whispered-
"Why behave a stranger when u r a part of it all?"
I heard and shuddered...
Something is talking to me without voice.
I bravely replied- "Thank you!
And i carry all of it within me!
At least for sometime...
I may forget-
I am a part of all this or u
And i carry u.
Please remind !"




*This time i didn't fail*
7am
5.10.2018
Girls Hostel (photo -back gate view)
Kalinga University
Kotni
Raipur

Ek pagal geeti

Jhipi jhipi barsha
Au pagal pavan aji bahut dina pare ekathi...

Mu basi cha piuthiba aluminium table bi dum dum tharuchhi...
Halei dohlei pavana bahuchhi...
Kana kahuchhi su su su bhasha re kie jane...
Barsha tala milei nachi jauchhi...

Jane udei neuchhi
Au janr bhijei deuchhi
Di jana nka bhrtghat kete sundar ....
Manisha ra chitra canvas pari,
Chitrakar ra kalpana uthi asi kholi jauchhi jibanta hei,
Barsha-pavana aji ekathi
Eka naam eka thikana
Kete vishala au didiganta byapi e  ahaghara bhoji ! panaromic...

Chhota gote room re chup chap di pada katha kichhi hasa jaha haji jae chari kantha bhitare...
Semiti ta nuhein e di jana nka katha barta...

Samudra ru uthi asichhi pavana...
Kichhi katha sethu b anichhi...
Kichhi juara ra marijuana ku lagei pagadi bandhi asichhi
Au akasha ra buku halei Devata nka swastno bhava hataru kichhi dhari asichhi, vijay tika lagei,
Puni megha mananku chhuin barsha ku nei asichhi...
Ete grand jebe anumati patra magiba pavana ra barsha sange dekha heba painee...
Tebe jebe sathe sathe jebe misi hatare hata dhari chalile di jana...
Ama sadharan manisha ku dise e chhabi ...
Eka pagal geeti !

Barsha aji ekaki nahi,
Gumsum barsi jauni
Pavana sange sange achhi,
Deula re basei gheni jauchhi,
Kouthi tanka ghara?
Pacharibi ki,
Na, thau,
Akaaran disturb heba,
Bahu dina pare aji barsha hasi deichhi
Au pavana nachu nachu lajei jauni
Jane Pagal (Raja boli hetu nahi)
Au tara pagalpan nei jane Rani!

Hueta samaste bhabanti
Pralaya tandava leela,
Mu kahe
Madhu-unmada preeti !

Nimantarana patra asichhi ta,
Table upare binchi hei padichhi
Kete sahasra...
Jibi kaouthi ki?
Kana lekhila pabana baiya hoi,
Kichhi dishuni....

``• Akasha Sareni •``

Barsha-bahula E August ra bela!

Kali raatire baar baar mu chamaki uthu thili, bhabi, chhata upare kie se amaniyaa baluta dum dum nachi kudi kichhi bada bada drum khasei deuchhi... aba bahut bhari baxa - kholi na pari phitei deuchhi anayatta...
Dhom dham awaj re bhabi rahi gali ke se Ratrichara badmas chhua...
Bada mane ta emiti hebeni...

"Kie Tu?"-
Prasna mora.
Uttara dela se kichhi samaya ra mana ichha khela pare tara-
Sarr sarr.. trip trip ruun huun..
Jharr jharr..
Mu Megha ua mo sathe mo sathini Barsha!

Prathame mu ase
Au daude...
Mote dharibaku jai se jhari ase..
Khela amara lukachhipi ra..
Kan Tu uthigalu?
Samaste soiba pare ta ame arambha kari thilu amara rati abhiyana-
dauda dhapda, kolakoli, gada-gadi...

Sorry kahibu nahi
Jadi nida bhangila- bhangu...
As baharaku aa,
Dekh to pasandida pavana- thanda pagadi pindhi, barsha chhinta ra uttariya odi,
Dauduchii ama saha!
Au puni kete kana..
Jo chandra dekhi thilu, ta akhiku chapi dhari ame sue deithilu ta,
Se puni to pari jagi gala...
Au uthibaku chesta kala...
Kalaa badal ra sainya saha kichhi samaya ladhei hela tara akashare semannka astra sastra bichhei padila -kala dhala alua ra chhit chhit jadu bhitare
Tu aa
Dekh...

Kete kete katha
Kete rati ra pakhi udiki gale chhuin baku digbalay!
Se jo dhala pakhi dekhi thilu chandra photo neba purbaru ...
Se daudu thila digbalay dharibaku chanchu re tara
Baki hari gala
Parilani.
Kehi bi taku kahileni emiti kichhi na thae boli.
Akasha sareni kebe bi boli...

``•``` Akasha Sareni  ```°```

🌲Tuma Muhan🌸 Prakruti sada ramaniya manmohak... Kie kahiba pachha pate bhayankar hospital nishwash b jouthi neba kashtakar... Durgandhyukt polluted atmosphere.... Thik agae pabitra prakruti... Atyant nirmal nila akash- barsha dhauta... naram sudaul raupya sama meghamala yukta- tale prakruti- harit... ekdam harit... Sate aba sabu michha!! Ya ta ye sabhyata michha Ya ye prakruti ! Akhi ku bishwash hue na e sundar chamakdar roopa pruthibi ra! Pruthivi ra? Na Ye ta Bhagawan nka muhan!!! Ete sundar Tume!!! Eithi painee mu dhai jibaku chahein e gachha lata bruksha shreni bhitaraku... E deha tumara... Kola Tumara... Seithi painee ete sukhada lage... Au akash tuma mukha... ete akarshaniya... Mu ta sishu Mo chhota akhi re tumaku aji dekhili Bhol heli... Akhira lens bi mora thik nahi nischay. Jinisha au manisha mu bari paruni janmita sishu pari. Seithi painee Tume tathapi rahashya au snehaspad! Chhua Ma au bapa muhan dekhi jemiti bhol hue... Dekhi rahi jae... dekhu thae... Mu bi semiti dekhi rahi jae tumaku. Jete dekhile b kam hin lage... Au dure dure dukhi rahe... Jal jal akhire achinha lokanku achinha duniya ku emiti chahun thae khali... Bhelka mu ethi. Khushi b Dukha b... Khushi Dekha dela boli Dukha Kichhi kahilani boli... Kahinki katha kahi lani? Bujhi paribini bhabi? *Katha kuha Prabhu*

🌲Tuma Muhan🌸

Prakruti sada ramaniya manmohak...
Kie kahiba pachha pate bhayankar hospital nishwash b jouthi neba kashtakar...
Durgandhyukt polluted atmosphere....
Thik agae pabitra prakruti...
Atyant nirmal nila akash- barsha dhauta... naram sudaul raupya sama meghamala yukta- tale prakruti- harit... ekdam harit...
Sate aba sabu michha!!

Ya ta ye sabhyata michha
Ya ye prakruti !
Akhi ku bishwash hue na e sundar chamakdar roopa pruthibi ra!

Pruthivi ra?
Na
Ye ta Bhagawan nka muhan!!!
Ete sundar Tume!!!
Eithi painee mu dhai jibaku chahein e gachha lata bruksha shreni bhitaraku...
E deha tumara...
Kola Tumara...
Seithi painee ete sukhada lage...
Au akash tuma mukha... ete akarshaniya...
Mu ta sishu
Mo chhota akhi re tumaku aji dekhili
Bhol heli...
Akhira lens bi mora thik nahi nischay. Jinisha au manisha mu bari paruni janmita sishu pari. Seithi painee Tume tathapi rahashya au snehaspad!

Chhua Ma au bapa muhan dekhi jemiti bhol hue...
Dekhi rahi jae... dekhu thae...
Mu bi semiti dekhi rahi jae tumaku.
Jete dekhile b kam hin lage...
Au dure dure dukhi rahe...
Jal jal akhire achinha lokanku achinha duniya ku emiti chahun thae khali...
Bhelka mu ethi.

Khushi b
Dukha b...
Khushi
Dekha dela boli
Dukha
Kichhi kahilani boli...
Kahinki katha kahi lani?
Bujhi paribini bhabi?

*Katha kuha Prabhu*

🍄Mushrooms 🍄

The grass....
Ancient lores it sings...
How many times i walk upon these grass beds...
They said they know...
And kissed my foot and injected earth into my vein- infected i start wishing to live more for another hundred years...
Tospread my smiles into His eyes... and he to transfer it to millions of small mushrooms....

The grass told
You have so many children from your previous walks...
Where ur face was different
U laughed differently...
He held you differently
Close to his heart
Children crawling all around you...

You had a different name and a different face the last time you walked upon us...
You had a large family...
And U said u r alone...

🍄Mushrooms 🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄

The Last Flower🌹

The Last Flower🌹

The last flower of the three flower shooting bunch
Says hello to 4th August 2018
Just now
Eveb before the Sun has risen
Even before i open my eyes...

Will You remember me
I am not certain
As you forget everything about the rose plant- the colour, the fragrance, the soft petals, the fear of being destroyed -
Everything....
You don't even remember where the rose plant was and now is...
Will you remember
How i flower
To render solace and happiness...
To surprise your eyes..
Will you remember? 

🎵The Message🎵

With the morning came the message,
I opened the courier
It was not there
I thought it would be in the phone
Looked for it
It was not there either...
Did i delete it
I thought..
But no, i did not..
I was aweful when i thought it did not come at all or got lost somewhere...

Then the Sun came up slowly
Like a ball that is being pulled by some children standing upon the terrace...
It came languidly, unwillingly
Feeling sleepy still,
Pushing the buildings and the wires and the steel rods
It smiled looking at me in an awkward fashion...
Tea perhaps, i asked pleasantly.

The rose opened its royal pink curtains and told me to come in. If it were not a flower i would have scared of it. So mysterious so soft all of a sudden a beautiful change - last night green n closed now vibrant pink and opened. No need.
No signature
No claim.
What's your purpose? I thought.
Is it that you exhibit beauty as a front and your aim is to collect data and send it to some distant universe?
'It is so delicate here", i mumbled ...'can i take some pictures,'
Yes, please, it smiled, flashing fresh shades of colour and i inhaled its soul,
A faint sweet scent enveloped me and touched my core.
It may shelter an alien spirit but it is a friend.

The pigeons came
As i droped grains for them
Not many today
Yeaterday there so many
I had a feeling i am feeding the whole world
They come flying from simewhere
There eyes so strong to see me from a diatant sat upon the terrace...
Plucked the food sincerely
Not a single one is left
Made noise
moved round and round and round and round...
As if they want to tell me something but are nervous...
So nervous...
Now they sat upon the railings, in a queer arrangement, looking at me haltingly giving me shy stares,
I said - 'show me the pattern!'
They fly to the front building and sat there...
They are showing me something
I could not understand and the show-makers fly away feeling embarrassed.
Few of them remained sitting nearby me as if to give me the solace
The show is not over yet
More are to come
Just wait, please.

I looked at the Sun
-'and what do you say, dear...
It did not interact at all.
It had gone beyond  the clouds...
Very small clouds had hold him in tight embrace!
"Oh, after i long dark night, you are there!"

🍂🍃🌽Asha ra Suneli Ranga🍃🍂🌽

Aste aste pavana re dohalu thila dhala golapa
Kichhi barsha chhinta măkhi...

Samaste jetebele haji gale andhara ratira surmaiyaa pańata tale,
Se aba kahin ki bhabila eka thia heba,
Samastanka tharu alaga!
Andhara saha jhagada lagi kana ba paiba?

Lata, gulma, patra, gachha, rasta, megha dhankă akasha- samaste ta haji gale, kala ranga ra brush jebe akha-pakha ghuri asila...
Kana bhabi e golapa dina ra ranga ku dhari rakhila?

Kana bhabi se aruna ranga ku gholi barsha pani re muhan sajeila?
Sameerana ra hata aunsa di pada mitha geeta pain,
Ba pathika kehi  chahin dei di ghadi thia hei rahiba boli...
Kejani ki asha tara,
E ghana amă andhara raatire se asha ra ranga kala ki dhala
Ratira sesha prahara kahiba pară...


🍂🍃🌽Asha ra Suneli Ranga🍃🍂🌽

🎈The Wind-Charm 🎈

The Wind howled slowly first...
And then fiercely. ..
And lo...
A balloon came dancing before me from somewhere...

Must be from the neighbouring  house where a small girl lives with her parents and a harsh voiced  granny....

It started whirling, and danced as if possessed by a spirit...
And i named it.
It came towards me creating small half and full circles, smiling. Touched and kissed my ankle..
I lifted it up with my hand.
"What do u desire...?"
I asked.
"Of course to fly...
Dancing...
Away and away in the sky through the trees..."
"So i will release u..."
"If u so wish...." it blurred...
"Whatt...?"
I queried....

" But ...if u keep me.. i may act like a charm or...
err...
Who knows..."
It opened up.

So i gave it to my parrot that is having only one hand...
May be he can ferry the sky with the help of the balloon...
One day....
With the wind

*The Wind-Charm*

🌹Your Match🌹

You have become so many
Whom to hold
Whom to kiss
I am struggling with my confused moves...

All over nectar-
My face,
My heart,
My hands,
All are drenched with the spilled nectar
And i am kind of lost,
And feasting...

You have chosen to become many...
What can i do
Other than becoming a butterfly...
When that did not work, two more bees came out of me...

You are there to show me
How you can multiply and fuse
And to tune with you i v to scatter and melt...
Like small shells, like leaves, like sands, like stars, like pebbles, like waves...
You are the flower path to the heaven!
Uncountable...
I will be
To be your match.

Its a secret too
I wont share it with anyone.
Passerby will find so many flowers and so many butterflies or bees..
But you and i know
There is a single you and a single me, trying to reach each other, bridging the gap between a 'you' & a 'me'


🌹Your Match🌹
26.7.2018
8.30pm

A Friend

The guest house
N the nearby vicinity...
Green..
Unpopulated!

Vast untouched land...
Row houses
With a simple and attractive and soothing architecture!

A single bird scanning the clouded sky,
Might v told something to the single stray dog sitting on a crossroad,
An information that nobody knows
Freshly fetched from the light beyond the clouds..
Might be tge dog had heard
It ran somewhere
Not for food
Not for fight
Jast ran
Like it has a messege to deliver somewhere the address unknown..
But by n by it will appear before it...
The lamposts in a row said a hello to me, a big hello with  metallic smile...
I nodded with pleasure seeing the trained and tamed monsters in love...
Long steel arms stretched a round base attached firmly to the earth the brothers Just created fossilized picture of some prehistoric animals awakened for few seconds,
Only to tell me
I m not alone!

All of them are telling this,
Only this,
The bird upon the sky,
The green leaves, grass and pinkish flowers
The air running as messenger of love n positivity in between then
Dropped the message in my ear
We are there for you
Always...
The 'we factor' gradually transforming and dissolving into an "I".
Its all one.
A single being...
I am an ant crawling upon it not to know which part is it's head and which one tge tail...
It whispers suddenly
I m there !
Only to make me realize i v a friend!

*
-A Friend-
9.05 am
Naya Raipur

Dina ra Stage

Shanta sandhya...
Guest house re mu eka.. ete room.. kehi bi nahi. Talaku asi thili pani bharibaku. Water purifier not working dekhi basili jai bahare..
Ekdam fresh pavana bahu thae dhire dhire...
Chhota chhota recently laga hei thiba gachha mananku aunsi sahalai...
Guest house agare lamba hei park painee space. Ghasa basa uthi jaichhi... kichhi jamu neemba gacha ra row... unmanned... untamed nature ku ashraya dei...

Mayabijadita raati, pralubdha prakruti basi katha heu thile...
Sunili..
Ausadhi pari
Baluta matha re ma ra hata pari...
Mo bhitare jamat bandha ekaki chhanchaana ra chhaya ku dhire dhire pochhi nei kolei dharile mote..
I became calm... calmer and gradually meditative....

Gote chhota musha main gate dei asi hello kahi daudi chali gala...
7 to 9.30 basi rahili semiti chup chap
Mora khola jharaka dei akash unki maru thila
Di teen ta halka badal udi jauthile
Pachhe rahi jaithiba bata bana mendha chhua pari  hueta tanku rasta dekheili mu...

Gachha mananka chhaya stheera bhabe bahari kantha re ek chitra pari - kebe kemiti hali dohali kahu thile-raati sara ame emiti pahara debu,
Ja, soi ja tu...

*
Sakale uthi tanku khojibaku jai na thili,
Jani thili
Na thibe...
Tathapi se aloka chhaya ra khela ra stage jemiti semiti thiba- eka pratishruti nei- ame puni asibu chup chap raati hele,
Mu kahi asili
Kintu aji raati ta mu na thibi ethi re au...
Chala pathika
Nija ganthili re bandhi neba tuma katha au jatna seva sabu...
Kebe eka lagile phitei dekhibi..
Mane pakeibi tuma mananku...
Gote dita dina ra milapa- lakhi rahiba chhati tala akasha re tara te hoi...
Dina sara khali bejan padithiba stage jagi uthiba raatire, ebe sina nahi roshani ra mauja, Mane rahiba e katha...

*
*Dina ra Stage*
24.7.2018

The Healer

Are you a healer, i asked Rain, as i finished writing this poem, looking at the rain-drenched trees from my window
and the unending dripping from above.
It does not say a thing...
But, yes, a natural healer never announce it's identity.

Its sound
Its touch
Everything is so soothing
Like a single balm to my thousand wounds...
May be for a while.

And the fairy world it creates
As it hssssssses ...
the whole world becomes benumbed with its defreaning sounds of cloud-roaring - magic!

People are silent
And Rain sings
It's ancient lores...
It never fails -works always to the heart awaiting a sky travel...
It takes me higher without a space-craft...
To the fairylands that are yet to be discovered and be lived...

Same space
Same environment
Same locality
And the same part of the earth transforms...
To a land of magic!
And a spirit whispers-
Now anything can happen !!

**The healer**

Rain Embrace

Rain...
Has the capacity to transform...
A sad note to a joyous one...
I felt it today...
Without any preamble or a token of promise
That everything is alright.
It simply says-
Dance,
Because i am dancing.
Be calm
Because i am downpouring icecold water drops...
Its all part of celebrating the earthly existence i can gift you.
And i said yes to it..
And dance with my mind
While a scream came out piercing  my throat
As rain touched me and danced upon me...

A child sprang out of me with it's nonending curiosity and who does not know what melancoly is or has not yet jumped into the pit of depression;
And then the fresh adult who is master weaver of dreams, what is being shattered is not known to it yet...
They all catch hold of me...
and all of us danced together -
the ever happy child in me,
The ecstatic dreamer of me,
Me
and
the rain....

Small rain florets are all over me,
Rain ornamented me for the show.

Holding its hand
The hand of the rain i again have that feeling,
Its so familiar..

!!!!Rain Embrace!!!

Barsha ra Pauti

Barsha ra ajasra dhara dei
Mana udi jae
Kejani kete dura
Ki asha nei
Hasi nachi
Akasha separi...

Seetala nauka sabu dhuandhar nadi bhitare
Dhire dhire nei janti mote hali dihali
Jothiku jibara rasta band thae Baishakha Jyestha re...

Kholi dei jae nistuk chhechi chhechi e barsha,
Janmita baluta ra ajasra làta pari-halka bàki,
Premi ra thara thara chumbana ra naram dhakka pari,
E barsha khole rasta- sukhada sambhariya dwipa ra, bina kichhi upadhaukana re...

Tebe satare kana kichhi mageni
Jor jabardasti na hele bi
Kichhi ta thiba ta mana re...
Bodhe mo otha ra nirmala hasa dhare,
Setiki tara pauna...

Au mu deli...

*Barsha ra Pàuti*

Unwinding The Reels

When you walk the roads
You know how lonely it is..
Everything -
The road
The crowd
The passing vehicles
and the vendors talking to you,
do not exist.

Its all like a nonsense movie you stopped watching.
Just now.

The Pianist Bird

Your arms like wings,
About to take off into the blues of my sky
To touch the floating clouds- pregnant,
And searching the Rain Child there,
To gift him a hat of stars.

You swim my sky.
And music -unheard, unknown pours into my seven beings, that awaken them from their hidden places to listen to your feather light touches...

Touch of your fingers, ten angel pianists, heavenly gifted.
easily make them  shifted-
from a snail to a butterfly..

These transformations go on every minute...
As you touch i change, i shift, i drift away from myself to become someone i hardly know...

Opening my heavily drugged eyes, sometimes i see my dreams dance, dangling from your finger,
Clinging to the car key and and to the keyboard of your cell phone...

Ek Man uge subah - Prabhati Tara
Bikhre din bhar: yahan wahan...
koi na dekhe..
itna sa Taara, itni si roshni
ghul jae kho jae
Surya ki rasmi me

fir v
kuchh to hota hai
kahin phul khilta hai
andekha sa ek kone me
kahin anchahe se man leke
raste sajte hein
mere kadmo ko hawa dene ke lie
Akash v tarha tarha se rangon malta hai
Nile-pagal muhn me
sunta hai batein
jo kaha na gaya...
dhua dhua sa badal ki ankh lie
Chand to bas ek Heera hai uska pagdi ka
ankh to badal hain-koi na jana...

Ek man Subah ka Taara
saam tak nisprabh...
dikhena, dub jae
Chand ugne se pahle
na Surya dekha na Chand
koi nahi
bas uga ki kho gaya..

ek man Subah ki Taara
aur ek man -Jalta Chand v...
chup chap saam dhalte hi simre...
bike kaudion ke dam...
ghash push me pade rahe sisakte sisakte...
itne dami sa Chand...
kitne tohfe uska -koi nahi lia...
hath me hi rah gaya
hath ki chese
jhilmil roshani,
gila raste -lambe bahut lambe hote jaen..
Chand latak jae kabhi Gulab ki pankhudion tale
kabhi jhule aeroplane ki lamba pankh pakde...
badlon se baat karta v nahi
ye mere man-ye chand bana-jal gaya..
kisiki ghar ki roshandaan banke....!

~Roshandan

Fairy Tale

7 Flowers all at a time
What they tell me...
To smile and to open up
And to reach out to others
Through fragrance streaks...

7 Flowers all at a time
What they tell me...
That there can be abundance
of Love of care of a universe full of talking stars
All sleeping.

7 Flowers all at a time
I v never seen
What they came to tell me?
Little faries,
What letters from the divine
They are delivering to me almost daily...
Like a fax machine beeping constantly
And papers coming out of it..
What exactly tell me..

7 Flowers all at a time
What exactly they speak to me
Everything is specific here- on this big world.
Every human has a different face and a different life.
The messeges these roses deliver has to be specific.
Nothing general works here.
So what it is.

7 Flowers all at a time
Fragrant and pressed together
They spell of a togetherness never ever found
Of love -rare
-In me -live, pulsating
Even within fire pits;
In someone else's heart-
Frozen, beeping once and then again goes back to coma..
As i call the golden breathing my Second Heart wakes up
Only to lower its head
The next monent
And sleep again

7 Flowers all at a time
What they are here for
To teach me
Life is to bloom
One fine morning like a surprise parcel sprading innumerable happiness to me to others related to me
And to shed silently one desolate evening-
All unnoticed.

7 Flowers all at a time
They are here
To weave a Fairy Tale
of the most beautiful kind !
Of a life called Deo
Of a life called Jay
And a single heart they share
The 7 flowers blossom there
to smile, swing and sing🎶
-Something nobody knows.